updates

BUSY! BUSY! BUSY!

sorry guys, haven been blogging regularly for so long. been busy with my part-time retirement plans as holiday gonna end real soon.

lets update abit about whats going on so far.

Wednesday evening went to school, actually wanna go gym & things regarding about the Korea trip but ends up going to Jeryl's life saving physical training. OMG~ now i understands why alcohol, supper and athletics don't mixed well.... ends up half way for the first time of my life, i felt like vomiting and breathless.... so much for being a sportsman in the past -.-''
even i can't believe myself...

I'll be busy throughout, till the day of Korea trip, as so much appointments and events going on.

*Friday I'll be going with Jonathan to a top man party invitation.

*Saturday morning 7am got a filming, role as a young couple. COOL~ wonder who is my couple. :p In the afternoon will be busy with appointments & night will be at powerhouse celebrating Travis birthday. :)

*Sunday it will be a family gathering to celebrate my bro's Chinese birthday & an appointment in the afternoon.

*Monday slot been used up.... appointments have all been taken up by school. -.-'' But I should have some time slots available at night.

*Tuesday till Thursday night i still have some free time slots, as from Friday till 14OCt I'll be away to Korea, the night I'm coming back, there's a event at powerhouse, Halloween ! i wonder if I'm up to it as I'm getting old.

Anyway lets meet up together and do some catching up coffee session with me and not waste this holiday period. :D *friends of mine should have my hp number*

CHEERS! :D

The same approach

There is someone who got the same approach as you, remain anonymous...
What should i do man? -.-

You can't break a broken heart

Won’t be so easy this time to hurt me
You can try and this time now baby there are no tears left here to cry
if you think you can wound me like before if you think you can do that anymore
won’t get too far no, you can’t break a broken heart

so try your best now baby try your best to break me
you can’t break a broken heart.


no damage you can do now i’m immune to you now
you cant break what broke apart
there’s nothing you can do to me no more
you can’t break a broken heart
hurt me before now wont hurt no more now not this time you might do better messing with someone else’s mind cause you’re not gonna break me down again
your done and through with me they way you did

Its gone to far
you can’t break a broken heart
so try you best now baby try your best to break me
you can’t break a broken heart
no damage you can do now im immune to you now
you can’ break what broke apart
there’s nothing you can do to me no more
you can’t break a broken heart
so don’t waste your time
your time has come and gone
what do you hear boy you can’t hurt me anymore
so try your best now baby try your best to break me
you can’t break a broken heart
no damage you can now im immune to you now
you can’t break what broke apart
there”s nothing you can do to me no more
you cant break a broken heart
so try your best now baby try your best to break me
you can’t break a broken heart
no damage you can do now i’m immune to you now
you can’t break what you broke apart
there’s nothing you can do to me no more
you can’t break broken heart

it's a lonely path

life have been quite a struggle for me, at the same time i am filled with excitement.

it's may be a tears of joy for me and it may be for you too, people come and go in your life, sadly to say it's kind of true.

here's something i learn and found not long ago.
"Silences make the real conversations between friends. Not the saying but the never needing to say is what counts. -Margaret Lee Runbeck"

so far, this kind of friends, i wonder do i have any of them?
pictures and happy moments are truly memorable. but what's the sad part about it is that, though with such happy moments, you can't contact that person due to one very sad event. This world is a very negative environment, so can't blame the faults onto anyone.

hope is an illusion, miracles are unrealistic.
goals & determination is the only thing you can depend on yourself with.
but what makes it frustrating is that, I'm racing against with everyone, racing against with time.

seems to me that the song that i composed, "Just a dream" really suits me.
success is the stepping stone i only every wants now, to move on to the next step....
is it too far fetch for me? it's true that man are not good thinkers.

thanks a lot~
this song can never been better :D

facts about boys

HMM, 90% are true :)

Disgusted & Disappoint *D & D*

now i truly understand what's the meaning of

*never confuse effort & result.
*goals & tasks.
*dreams & reality.
*objective with determination & focus.

i'm sorry guys! give me sometime, i'll go sort things out till my mind is peaceful.


today is just not my day! as i don't have a room door anymore~

happiness is not tonight

here are some confession i would like to make

I hate dad
*he never once support me in anything, cause he will never stand on par with me to listen what i have to say*

I hate school
*because may be the people are all to smart i guess? like to back-stab here & there to get to the top. lastly it's something that's slowing me down.

I'm sorry Jocelyn
*sorry that i kind of put u on an airplane, because I'm busy tomorrow! hope u can understand but I'll make it up to you. :)*

I miss you
*cause throughout so many conversation with others, you're still the best*

I treasure the ones who trust in me
* if you treat me like your brother, buddy, pal, as long you trust me and I'll treat you the same way and never once betray you. *
hmm, I really respect people from the 80's whom are gangsters! very very loyal! well, i used to have friends who are loyal and we never betrays, so do i. But i lost contact with them, as time moves! now in poly~ there is no such brother to be seen. NON!!!! may be just sherman? LOL
But at least i have a few very trust worthy business partners & mentor that I can put my trust in.

What if

what if~
what if you never talked to me before? what kind of person will i be now?
what if I never asked for your hands? what kind of relationship will we have now?
what if we're still ********! what will happen?
what if one day~

there's so many what if in my mind, but eventually, i think~
nah~ it's not important!! well, if you have any thoughts about 'what if'
please share with me at the comment section in this post! :)

When a perfection learns imperfection

Throughout this few days, lots of things happen! girls? guys? entertainment? studies? -.-''

well, Just got to say that i need to learn to drink more~ I'm so bloody noob! haha

I found this song, i hope i'm not gonna be like this song~




i try not to miss you~ but it seems like it's tough like hell!

Life is unexpectable

yesterday on the way home, i somewhat witness an suicidal case happen around my area~
OK! here is what exactly happen. i went to school to submit something to someone and i go back home already. it's raining heavily so i took a longer path along the shelters. as i was walking i heard someone scream like Tarzen & the next sound i heard was a BOOM~ But at that time i didn't bother much about anything. but we're living in singapore, so typical singaporean start to gather in crowds~ than to go back home, i need to walk past the crowd & so happen that i saw my dad's friend & i ask what's up loh! OMG someone was lying on the ground and it's raining heavily...

not long later, the police arrive & barricaded the place up! and a white clothe was than covered the body~

today i storm upon a video in youtube~ after seeing this! my heart feels quite heavy!
it's like no one will know how a life can end just like that~

here's the video~


TO all you people reading this blog post! cherish & treasure the ones around you & for those out there who are still single or in complicated R/S, if there is this girl or guy that you have feelings or something u wants them to know about! GO CONFESS TO THEM, cause live life to the fullest~ don't wait anymore! cause death waits for no one~

changes COUNTS

There is this song, i composed the lyres a few days after, since that night~
this song, i wish I'll never give you in person :')
thanks my friend who help me sang this song! it's great & i think i can't be better~ LOL
if i do give you in person~ means i know you're gone forever! LOL

hmm~ HMT is just 2days away! but this few days lots have happen to me, dad went hospital, my dog fall ill again -.-'' and my headache have turn worst & craving for junk food every night.... *FML*

trying to get as busy as possible, cause or else my mind thinks otherwise....
erm~ well, I hate school & exams -.-
cause it's a waste of time, but no choice! what i started since it's half way already! might as well complete it...

hai~ why am i procrastinating about things man~ i should be like the Nike's motto! JUST DO IT!

lets just say that, I've been a crazy man this few days! kind of dislike myself! i feel dirty~ may be cause i expose myself to girls this few days ba! well, cause that's is what i call stepping out of comfort zone~

erm~ don't think so much arh! i'm still pure~ LOL
just that socialist to know more people. nothing else~ LOL

sometimes i wonder, if someone will ever beat my heart again~ what should i do man? :/
haha, well! the calculation of possibility is like at most 12% to get my heart beat again~

First time for everything

Friday night went to rebel with my friends. as i wanna distress about something else. :/

well, interesting things happen over there LOL~ i was dancing at a location for quite sometime already, and there was this idiot that stands besides me and kept on pushing me away~ LOL

i can't stand his attitude & for your information he uses his head to grind against a girl's butt & the girl feels really uncomfortable & thus i did something crazy for the first time~ LOL

i danced like a fucking gay~ i went to grind, bang & push that guy's back real hard~
*trying to push him away* but his fucking fat & heavy~ and than later on he still don't wanna give way~ than i no choice, i went up to that girl trying to dance with her awhile but there is no space than instead i just say to her, sorry i have to come up here, cause of an asshole. she says it's okay~ :) and YA!! his an idiot & real stupid. than i say "ya" LOL

OH YA!! i spine my ankle by accident :/
*i dance kind of like *you* but a male version~*

than later on, for the first time! i ask that girl for her number~ LOL!
i never ask number from girls before, not say don't have arh~ but as in girls i don't know. this will be the 2nd time~ BUT she's the first time in club! LOL

she does surprise me quite a few things, like she just graduate from SAJC & tomorrow she's going for her first day of uni in NTU. and her favorite quote is "rubbish"

she says SAJC is famous for going to clubs -.-''

erm~ interesting girl i would say! LOL~

lots of my friends says to me "whatever happens in club, stays in club"
i wonder if that's true? o.O LOL

nice knowing you, Wendy Ong :p

Wealthy, Health, Exams & Enjoyment

Didn't felt so well for maths yesterday~ got a fever & dizziness. :/
had plenty of rest, things & medication~

haha, in the evening met out with Jocelyn to have dinner together with Paul. erm~ bare with me, cause i know that my sentence structure will be very bad for this blog post. :S

oh yes! before dinner, we went to OC to check things out! :) after that, Jocelyn & i went to watch a movie Step up 3D. it's a totally awesome & fantastic movie~ my first experience watching a 3D movie as well. FYI : she's very tall, i have to sit up straight at all times or else i'll be very short~

BE WARN: WATCHING THIS MOVIE WILL MAKE YOU WANNA GO CLUBBING! CAUSE THE MUSIC ROCKS THE ENTIRE MOVIE THEATER.

HAHA, well! i find Jocelyn looks like lady gaga when she wear the 3D glasses! because of her bangs & her hand posture holding the glasses.

after the movie, we join Paul to have some drinks & games at the white bar again~
everything ended at 2am, but we had supper after it.

well, living wealthy is important to live a healthy life as well, or else will be like me, sick for exams. LOL




After that movie, in some way i miss you~ ALOT!! somehow that character in the movie resembles you. miss how you taught me in dance & other things ba! haha~
Jocelyn even told me to sms you, but i says No. LOL

It's been cleared

somehow i feel lighter after about what happen and everything, may be because i'm clear about how you feel about me? well, that is not a question or anything that's disturbing me anymore~ cause I'm clear about it already~

we really do need the space and time off between the both of us! :) everything is just too hot between us~ :)
so yup, if there's such thing calls fate~ than just go with the flow will do ^^

OMG~ i hate maths, suddenly i felt so stupid! it's like i only got 10% of confidence & knowledge about maths :/
I'M A GONER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hmm~ studies, business, socializing & self improvement is the things i wanna focus on~ :)